Ein thinks too much

Instead of working, I'm stuck here in lalaland doing nothing but thinking.

Dad's birthday is today and we're still up to our necks preparing for the dinner tomorrow night.

Dresses to wear, shoes to match the dress, necklaces, etc.

Aside from that, I have a question dangling in my mind...

Does the spark really exist?

As in hollywood teenybopper spark. Is it real?

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'C' and I have been friends for years. As in a very long long time. We met back in third grade when we were really young and he was like a little brother of sorts to me. Even during our childhood years, I already was the alpha male. Class pres, active student, etc. I kicked people's asses when he got bullied, in return he carried my bags, books, chased away silly crushing kids and even opened doors for me. Now we're talking about dating. No, not him and I. About me and people I met along the way.

I'm a twenty-one year old laptop toting dude. (I don't want to say "girl"). Going to law school, working and getting promoted still, doing make up jobs every now and then, great payslips every month and a bank account that continues to make me happy. It's all about the zeros. In time I will have enough to make my 'rents proud. I can cook, sew, play more than four instruments and do more things only heaven knows. Also, still very single.

It's a choice.

Rumors always fly around about me dating people, getting hooked up and all. All funk, no glory, since I've been single all my life. Then this one person comes in and I start questioning my choices.

We've been going out with friends for some time. My sister think this person is okay, my Mom thinks this person is okay too. Everybody else thinks we look good together. However, for me, there's no spark.

Is there really a spark?

I asked 'C' and he said it did exist.

Was it a firework kind of thing? Magic? Lights going up on the sky?

He said probably.

How do you know if there's a spark? How do you that's it?

I want to know, seriously.

Or am I looking for something that doesn't even exist?

I don't know, world.

But even tho there's no spark, I still love you world.

Ein, the weekend that has passed and birthday bashes

It’s 24^th of May, 2010 – it’s a Monday, good week ahead, hm, world?

Wow, two days without ever writing in this journal. Somehow that makes me feel empty, lol. Two days had come and gone and I’m still whirling with excitement and euphoria in my head. Well, at least, up until last night when my head started hurting like hell. I asked someone to crack my skull open, then had some medicine then some good chocolate to relieve myself of the pain. Later that night, my sister and I watched South Park and I cured myself with laughter. South Park is our drug, I must say. It’s stupid and pointless but we keep going back to it for the fun we get. Good times.

So we had our shoot last Saturday with the usual gang. Just be Friends. Unfortunately, we didn’t have enough time to shoot RIP=RELEASE. And I was looking forward to it too!

We agreed on meeting by 8am. Niichan, as usual, is ever punctual and came 40 minutes before the call time. 7:30am, I went in to McDonalds and ordered food with Niichan as we waited for the other two to come. We also mooched some Wifi while we were at it hahaha. However, the connection gets cut off every thirty minutes, I guess? And just on cue, the other two came and we drove off to Bulacan.

It was another period of waiting as we came to Imahica’s house even before she got home from the Town Plaza. When she got home, we proceeded to the house and started preparing.

The balloons were damn crazy. Damn crazy I tell you, hahaha.

Somewhere along pumping balloons and trying to make sense of how we’re going to keep everything in place. Patty and I got high. I don’t know why. Heck, I don’t even. Lol.

Oh, by that time, Noelle came in too and helped out. Sweet, no? I love how she’s always around.

Anyway, when we finished making all the balloons and the paper planes for the shoot, Niichan and Layla finished making the background as well.

By then, our Chowking order came with the delivery man speeding off with his motorcycle. Since every one was nearly dying from starvation, we gave in and ate. By then, we were an hour behind schedule.

We finally began shooting. We had a lot of problems, actually. The lighting wasn’t really that good, we used improvised reflectors since we forgot to bring ours, lol. Then we had to cramp ourselves in the make shift background that we made.

Fixing ourselves was a problem too. Here I am in all my gay glory. I was practicing the “hurt” face, the dude had. I’m not sure if that went well.

Luka looks brilliant. Imahica is probably one of my favorite canvasses. I love putting make up on her.

And then we had to change outfits ever so often, I swear Imahica and I lost a few pounds that day. (Which I probably readily gained as I chugged down a couple glasses of soda.)

Even my soda moments end up emo. I don’t know why, it just does. Lol.

We didn’t copy the original Just be Friends video shot per shot like how most would do. I wanted to bring something new to the table and decided to go with the English version, a masterful cover of the song by a YouTube fandubber who translated the song in English. I also planned a lot of other shots in order to bring some movement and more drama into the picture. Not to mention we didn’t do the first scene with the sofa and the boy in jeans. It just didn’t suit my taste, is all.

lol no edits, look at that poor background.

I hope to pull this off, really. Come Thursday and the pictures are in hand, I’m going to be a very, very, busy emo dude.

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Oh, it’s the 24^th.

I remember my Mom’s birthday tomorrow. The hardest part is that we have to top last year’s bash. At least the birthday bash, since I don’t think my sister and I can afford to top last year’s Christmas present for Mom and Dad. Those gifts really cost us a bundle, lol. Not that I’m complaining. Those gifts, after all, last forever – if you catch my drift.

Every year, my Mom wants the same things. For Mother’s Day, she wants books and limited edition CDs. For her birthday, we always go out to get her designer bags and shoes. That’s how it is every year. Few weeks back, she said she wanted something new for her birthday. And I asked her what it was. She said she wanted the Michael Jackson Collection, out for bids I think. My sister and I settled for that. But few days ago, she changed her mind. Good thing we didn’t place an order yet, ti would have been wasted. Now we’re back to designer bags and shoes. It’s still a wonder where everything goes. She buys them constantly and I never see them. She just wears them once, twice, then you never see them again.

My Dad’s birthday is on the 28^th. When my sister and I were younger, we would often buy him collectible lighters. My Dad smokes, so he likes those. Also cute ash trays, which were, um, too cute haha. But these days, we get him shoes, sunglasses and the like, since he couldn’t be bothered to buy those himself.

Also, Mei, (also known as Geewan, since I’m Geetwo hahaha) is celebrating her birthday on the 27^th :D Happy birthday Mei! I still don’t know what to get her lol.

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Yeah, I guess that’s it for today :)

Good day, world :D

And oh, I’m still crazy for lip piercings :p

Ein and all the other kinks in the world

It's Fridaaay! 21th of May, 2010!

And I have nothing to write about today's events since I've been doing nothing but work, lol.

Anyway, still watching videos and the like. My day may be summed up to a series of events.

eins - waking up.

I lie awake in bed. It's summer the air conditioner is up all day. I lie awake in bed as my alarm goes off. These days, it's the sweet singing of Monsoon that wakes me up.

zwei - getting up.

First I sit up, open my laptop, click the router then check my mail (you guessed it, work. lol.). Thirty minutes later I finally get out of bed and

drei - fixing the bed.

Bed, pillows, sheets, and the blanket. These days, my sheets are galactic lol. Which reminds me, I want that Kaworu Nagisa pillow real baaad.

vier - greeting the 'rents.

Dad's always in front of the computer every morning - without fail. Mom's with Tiara our little baby :)

funf - coffee.

This goes without saying, I run on caffeine after all, lol.

sechs - bath.

Translation: Draining the shampoo and conditioner bottle. :)

sieben - prepping up.

Combing my hair is the longest of my routines.

acht - work.

Which involves a lot of e-mails, documents and the like.

miscellaneous - internet, fun and games (until somebody loses an eye, lol)

Yeah :) This involves me playing on the internet, watching vids, downloading random things, looking at happy photographs then checking eBay for new stuff. lol.

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Wow, no pictures yet? lol.

Anyway, I realized that I really had a thing for piercings. I once blurted out to my friends that I like ear piercings but can't get one for myself. It doesn't sit well with my dream profession, you see. But I really like seeing people with neat and cool ear piercings... BUT - only on their left ears. I dunno, lol. Left ear. Pretty. I guess it's because I can touch it with my right hand? Or maybe because I was told before that left ear piercings are the only acceptable ear piercings for men. I don't know, I have no idea.

Also,

I discovered a thing for lip rings.

I now find it sexy. It's crazy.

There's something dangerous about it, I dunno lol. Dangerous, but cute. Then sexy, it intrigues me. Ah. lip rings. Ugh.

Oh. Now that I'm on the subject of the many things that I like, might as well, lol.

photo from istock :)

piano fingers. damn.

Long and slender fingers, I like them. A lot. Even though I play the piano, I can't read notes. HAHAHA. orz. I play by ear, lol, which is pretty sad I guess? So... I love seeing long and slender, piano trained fingers. Long, slender, beautiful fingers reaching out to the sky, combing one's long hair, typing on the keyboard... the works. Possibly playing the guitar too. Speaking of guitars -

hot damn, Ganesa.

and of course,

the frozen flame D-DR-300

They're not Fenders, or Gibson Les Pauls, but I fell in love at first sight. Sooo... if I ever had enough money (in the future), I'd grab me these guitars to put on my pad :]

and then there's

*angel chorus here*

Vivienne Westwood.

I really don't care much about the bags, it's all about the coats and the accessories. They're pretty pricey, but meh, lol. If I never knew Vivienne, I probably would have more money in my bank account, lol. Visit hervia.com for authentic Vivienne Westwood stuff :)

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One of my friends posted a vintage photo of herself. It got me curious and I ended up searching for some of my old pictures too.

And...

hahaha. holy kaworu nagisa. hahahahaha.

yeah. been there, lol. I think I was thirteen here, or fourteen. I dunno, I sincerely can't remember.

My sister took this shot, entered it to a contest and won. Won what, only God knows hahaha.

I guess this is where our inside joke came from. My friends would say something along the lines of "you'll be eaten by the darkness", I will instantly say "I can't be eaten by the darkness! I AM the darkness!" ahaha. ahahahahaha. ahaha =_=. Looking at it now, I look like a damn emo kid ._. I hate the emo fad in our country. Goth is fine. emo, eh.

Hm. I guess I didn't change that much? I'm still emotive/dramatic/expressive. I've been told many times how expressive my eyes are *coughdrama,coughemoboy*

lol.

Looks like I spent hours on this entry alone.

LOL. What the hell.

I guess I better go,

xoxo world :)

Ein and the deranged lover

The deranged lover from RIP=RELEASE, that is :p

It's 20th of May, 2010 - Thursday.

Today went by like a breeze. Work's still not done tho as I've only arrived from the mall. I spent my day shopping for balloons and clothes I'm missing for Saturday's shoot. I'm still missing the wreath emo boy wears but at least I'm almost set. Oh, man, I'm so excited. lol.

My sister got her grades from law school today, just one more exam and she's a fourth year law school student. Ooh, I wish her all the best.

So last night, all I did was listen to German music. LOL. I was going through my CDs and spotted Tokio Hotel. I don't know anybody else who likes this band. All of my RL friends either (1) never heard of them or (2) hate them. I like them. Bill, Tom, Gustav and George. Bill and Tom. lol. First time I saw them, never thought they were twins. Make up and hairstyles really change people. Hm. Bill and Tom are really something. I wonder how it's like to have a twin. I guess the only reason I like forbidden tags on these twins is because I don't have one myself.*coughtwincestcough* What they have is really special. Hearing In Die Nacht, was just, wow.

Anywaaaaay, so much fangirling lol.

I talked about Just be Friends before. Now let's talk about RIP=RELEASE.

Luka's gonna tear you apart, and you won't mind.

RIP=RELEASE is Megurine Luka's answer song to Kagamine Len's Spice! The song Spice! is all about Kagamine Len's escapades with women. A stylish little womanizer he is. But in the end it is all revealed that he's just repressing all of his feelings towards Kagamine Rin who happens to be very happy with her then beau Kaito. The ending of Spice! is different from one version to another. One ending shows Len giving in to his desires, others with Rin finally understanding where Len is coming from. Then comes RIP=RELEASE. Luka, in this song, is one of Len's women. She sings how deeply she is taken by the young Casanova and how she wishes she can have the boy all to himself. In the song, it is implied that Luka is very much aware of Len's true feelings and despite knowing that, she welcomes him still - each time he is in need.

So... yeah. :)

Imma be this sassy little bastard right here. hahaha.

But my roles are usually the emotionally sensitive little drama king tho, so I'm not entirely sure if I can pull this Casanova act off.

Then again, with RIP=RELEASE's story line, Len's all regretful, pondering and reflecting on his actions. Hm. Sounds good to me. :)

So... I have to go back to work now.

Enough spazzing for today :D

Hey world, keep loving me :)

I love you!

Ein meets the unattainable

Lol, the drama! The title is a reference to Vocaloid's Just Be Friends.

It's 19th of May, 2010 - Wednesday.

I'm going to concentrate on work today. Then the next few days will be shoots, etc. lol.

I mentioned before that we're doing Just be Friends and RIP=RELEASE from Vocaloid right?

Just Be Friends is a song by Megurine Luka, the lovely pink haired girl from Vocaloid. In that song, Megurine Luka and her best friend falls in love with each other but ends up breaking up.

On our shoot, I'm going to be this sucker right here.

I mean, come oooon. Megurine Luka? Dang it boy! hahaha

They look good together, no?

And here he is, realizing how wrong it was of him to break up with the graceful beauty Luka.

My friends says he's all emo and stuff. lol.

And here I am, trying to emote, lol.

Disregard the messy room hahaha.

Do you think I can make it? XD

Oh well, there goes the time :]

I love you, world!

And I'm so excited, lol.

Ein and the lazy afternoon

It's 18th of May, 2010. It's 6:00pm and a Tuesday.

Today has been a very slow day. I ended up piling up work over the weekend and I have to work on them now. A lot of people think I work too much, I think that's fine. The payslip is really rewarding for a home based job :]

Hm. So, I made plans for the weekend, and the next two days after that. On Saturday, we'd shoot on Imahica's place in Calumpit, Bulacan. That's a two hour drive for me, I'm from Forgotten City, the traffic capital of my country. Then come Sunday, Ecopark, a thirty minute drive and Tuesday, my alma mater, an hour and a half drive from home. BUT-- my parents feel that I should just stay home. lol. Dad says I should spend more time at home. It's sad, since I'm trying to spend my summer to the fullest. I don't go to beaches, I don't go to bars either. I spend my time with friends, doing shoots, when I get home, I work. It's all I ever do... @_@; my sister, on the other hand, goes to places that are on the opposite sides of the map. I wish I could do the same.

Anyway, I'm still hoping and praying that they'll allow me.

Oh, by the way, here's another photo :)

another photo by Aiko - http://www.chinkyaiko.deviantart.com

Do you think I make a regal looking and charming husband? :)

Hey world, I love you!

Keep loving me :)

Ein meets the wall

It's 17th of May, 2010 - Monday.

And I've hit the wall. Meaning, I'm lazy and bored out of my mind lol. Should probably get going and start working.

Last night, the moon was just dreamy, like smiling. I told Chi about it, like it was smiling down on us haha. Cute. Good times. I thought it was 'Regulus', the heart of the lion shining above the moon - I realized it was on the wrong side of the sky, I later learned it was Venus.

Oh, here's a shot of me as Alto from yesterday's shoot.


photo by Aiko - http://chinkyaiko.deviantart.com/

and also, me as Lelouch, wearing his CLAMP artwork white suit

photo by my anata Sayou Mizuki - http://sayou.deviantart.com/

Should fix the hair better.

Hm.. so I started my day pretty late and had Mom's delish barbecue spareribs for breakfast/lunch. I've been pretty lazy today so I guess I better start working.

Stay wonderful to me, world.

Hey world, I love you. :)

Ein meets true love

Today is a Sunday, 16th of May, 2010.

I got married today : )

photo by Patricia Bellido - http://pockylacious.deviantart.com/

Kidding, lol.

Macross Frontier's Alto-Sheryl pair is probably one of my most favorite pairs. Today, we had a cosplay photoshoot. Of course, I'm Alto :) The mysterious Sheryl is played by Marky. Talk about crossplayers pairing up :P

I really had fun today. Kuya Erving is as great as ever, I'm happy he offered to help with the shoot and ended up directing the shoot XD I get really shy when it comes to asking photographers like Kuya Erving and Kuya Kiko, lol, so...lol. Zhelle and Patty are new additions to our troop and we've done only two shoots together. It's been really great shooting with them and I wish to shoot as much as we can while I still have the time, lol. The clock is ticking after all. Aiko came by today too, I'm really happy that she did, lol. Sayou and East were there today, too. Helping out and snapping pictures, can't wait to see their photos. Aside from Alto and Sheryl - Ikuto, Utau and Amu from Shugo Chara also came by, lol. Sai and K.A. came along. Missed them over the days of our distance hahaha. And of course, Chi, whose outfit I still don't approve. HAHAHA. ;A;... My niichan also came by today, I'm really happy to see him again after a very long time. I feel bad that I didn't remember to take pics of us together =A=

Also, what's up with Durara? (Durarara?) It popped up in every conversation we had hahaha. Should probably watch it tomorrow, lol, have to know who this Shizuo dude is first before agreeing to don his costume lol.

So, yeah. It has been another great day.

Hey world, I love you,

please keep loving me : )

Ein meets the world for the first time

It's 15th of May, 2010.

Today marks my first day facing reality.

Well, not really. But I thought that I ought to use a dramatic line to start this blog haha.

How many blogs have I started and how many blogs have I left behind. Well, I intend to keep this one, seriously. And that I promise!

Yesterday, I got accepted into a law school I've been dreaming of getting into. It's ecstatic and I felt as if I was reborn. So today, I will start anew, as 'ein', the dream weaver I know I am.

God speed to me, to us :]

Cheers!

I love you, world.